I deserve an academy award

As I worked the last 3 days it dawned on me how much of my time is spent not showing how I really feel. I'm not sure how emotionally healthy that is over time but it is certainly part of the job. It doesn't always require effort. A lot is just subconscious with caring about the other person's feelings and taking care of them as you would want to be cared for, non judgementally. That being said there are many moments where I have to make a monumental effort not to show what I really feel. On Sunday the dept was full everyone running to keep up when I went in to see a 16 yr old who was dizzy and nauseated. As I am getting the story from the pt and mom I asked how long have you been dizzy, the reply was " 2 years" my next question was how long has she been nauseated. The reply was " since second grade" I not only had to keep my jaw from hitting the floor but had to keep the WHAT the F?!K look off my face. I'm pretty sure I pulled it off but it was touch and go. The Oscar goes to ME!!

The Joys of ER Nursing

Had a very busy day yesterday as all Mondays are when a young woman comes in crying moaning clutching her abdomen and describing terrible pain, I start to feel compassion which after 30 years is usually reserved for the truly bad things I have to deal with. About forty minutes into what is going to be a very expensive abd workup she pulls me aside and admits she started her period and is just having her normal " bad cramps" sometimes the patients are lucky we will never be able to carry personal tazers

Hell

To some

hell is a lake of fire

to me it is walled lake in winter

The holiday is over

Well the boys are gone Bri left Sat Dave left today ( at 0415!), feel a little let down it's always hard to say goodby to my guys. I had a wonderful time, enjoyed meeting Heather DM's girl and by the way HeatherI used up all the bath salts they were wonderful!. Dave's friend Sara came over last night and we all went out to dinner with John Robinson and his daughter Jen. I haven't seen John in a long time, we were roomies back when I was preg with Dave and living with Huck. It was great to see him and meet his lovely daughter. Sure did make me pause though, hmmm last time I saw him had very tiny children and now all our kids our grown. It was a really nice evening